life is good today and i went to the beach for the first time in a decade πππ i never thought the rage in my heart i had a few years ago would manifest into the love i have for the ppl around me. i got to spend today with ppl that have taught me so much about friendship and what it means to really build trust and care with. i want it to stay like this for forever. βwe build from struggle, we learn to love from struggle. if folks can do it in worse conditions, so can we.β
-dah homie
I started to fill my days with pleasant experiences, I express what I feel, I open my heart because I don't hold back any longer, I don't leave things for later. I choose which people I want to come with me, and I tell them every day how much I love them, I look them in the eyes, I feel, I hug them. I laugh, I enjoy, because that is life. I enjoy the simple moments here and now, not tomorrow, NOW.
I honestly feel like overall my life is so good and I have so much to be grateful for. Every day I am so in love with my husband and kids. We have our home and our health and our pets and friends and family that love us. I love my job and what I do- I love helping people. Every day is a balancing act and many days I'm always amazed I get done what I need to. I drop the ball on things but try not to beat myself up over it. I do a pretty good job at that too. I try not to stress about money or things too outside of my control. I'm not always great at that. I have been carrying a lot of the extra child/house load while my husband finishes his PhD, and I kind of hit small wall with that this week. I act like an ant with taking on things, especially if I know it's temporary. Once again reminded I don't need to do it all, I have people that want to support me! I get into a headspace where I feel bad for asking, but am always learning that it's up to the other person to tell me what their limits are, I shouldn't assume. July is bookended with vacations for me, both of which give me the opportunity to swim in large bodies of water which is my favorite activity in the world, so I am excited and full of energy!!
