I tried not to rationalize or intellectualize it too much while I was making it, but i think I was trying to get at an unfixed sense of self, an always under construction sum of my parts
i think i have a bad tendency to try and create art as a coping mechanism in the midst of Whatever… but usually that stage of things ends up being messy, uncomfortable, and poorly made (esp bad when i’ve invested too much in it already lol) the most beautiful worthwhile stuff is made after the Whatever, and that’s the hardest because you have to confront that mess with complete clarity
i think our only purpose in living is to be people, to be individuals and realize our selves into the world and each thing we make or say or do contributes a little to building that self’s presence in the world it’s broader than art but art is the clearest example. things are only beautiful if they are expressive of a person on the truest level
Ok stay with me here. Too much public filming. This is going to discourage good weird public activity. We need people being weird in public. Odd dancing, carrying around insane items, freaked out fits, etc. Instead of a quick vid to show your friends, or, god forbid, *get internet clout*, people should be sketching the scene and describing it in colorful language. Now you have to take accountability for your opinion on the matter, your draftsmanship and writing gets better, and the public freaks have plausible deniability in the job interview. This goes for drunk man on the street tik tok videos as well. Put on a newsboy cap and start jotting. There should be exceptions like intentional performances or heinous crimes of course. I’m open to other exceptions I just can’t think of any rn. This will never be a reality but i can try
