Feeling terrible because I'm terrified my holiday will suck or everything will go wrong or maybe I will forget a really important thing. Once we are actually on the road, I know these feelings will disappear. Currently, however, it is the night before I leave and it SUCKS.
i could be leaving for the nicest most amazing vacation and i still get the most horrible anxiety when packing. i'll put it off until the end of time. the overwhelming feeling i get of what to even bring is TERRIBLE (this pic is from me having a literal meltdown over packing for punta cana... so dramatic... literally going to an all inclusive resort...)
Nothing in the world that gives me more anxiety than being in a confined space with my family for multiple days on end. I feel like I emotionally regress and the tiniest thing will send me into a spiral of anxiety. Being on vacation with family puts me in such a bad mood I feel like I bring the entire tripβs energy down and ruin the vacation for everyone, even though my bad mood is almost always triggered by my family doing something they know will anger me. One day I will free myself from these feelings and learn to ignore and move on but for now I will wallow in my frustrations.
I need to leave and go travel. I feel it in my bones but Iβm also extremely afraid. I know the logic is to still do it scared, but Iβm not sure. I feel unprepared.
As y'all might know, I'm a climber. Which is fun, cute, sexy and I recommend everyone to become one. Only downside is that it's def a male dominated sport. There's plenty of girls who climb, but a large majority (in our gym) is male. Meaning that the likelihood of going on an outdoor climbing trip without men.. is small. Unless, of course, you organise a girls-only climbing trip. I would highly recommend doing so. Men r great but it's also nice to only be surrounded by girls who know what's it like to climb when you have a menstrual cycle and don't have a natural knack for dynamic power. Made me feel supported, seen and connected.
