I havenāt had the energy to journal for the last probably 4 months (maybe longer) so Iāve started just talking to my phone and saving it for myself to look back on (or delete which I often do). Sometimes itās nice to just get the words out and not have it loom in the corner of my room in a cursed notebook lol. It has also helped me with articulating myself and having self compassion.
If not every day then just when you can, half the time Iām lying and a day behind playing catch-up. Anything I donāt want to tell a real person, dishing all gossip but also a general recap of my day etc. Great if you donāt trust your long term memory, because I sure donāt! I started months ago but got serious about it before new yearās. Iāve been consistent and itās as close as I can get to free therapy, other than venting into the void!
(the void doesnāt remember for you though) :/
The other day I went to a coffee shop with the intention of reading my book but instead spent about two hours writing in my journal. Iām not a great journaler. Itās the kind of relationship where Iāll pick it up when Iām going through something, be really consistent for a couple days, and then once Iām feeling lighter I wonāt touch it for months. Iām definitely not in the easiest season of life right now, but im not actively shittingscreamingcryingthrowingup about anything at the moment. For some reason though, despite my mentally āupā state of being, I was desperate to write down everything Iāve been thinking and feeling in the past couple weeks. I honestly think itās why the past couple days I havenāt posted anything on this app is because anything I wouldāve mused about I already wrote in my journal lol. I even considered just taking a picture of the journal pages and posting them here but that felt too intimate? Maybe?
For those of you that hate journalling ā try recording video logs! Like literally just sit down for twenty minutes and talk. Can be about anything. Bonus points if it's something you don't think anybody cares about. I think a lot of us could use a positive outlet right now and for the last little while, this has been it for me! Really nice way of documenting all that you get up to, too. Life moves fast and it's easy to forget the little things
ā¦not ā¹ļø.
For whatever reason I keep posting and then deleting my recs immediately. Iāve gotten shy on here. I used to be so bold. I donāt know what happened !!!
Iām currently in the back seat of my friendās car listening to their future plans. Itās lowkey terrifying me. Howeverā¦.take this as your sign that you donāt have to know what you want. Youāre not alone!!!