i know 20 is young and i blend in with my younger friends a little and since i have a youthful appearance it shocks people to hear im older than they are . ive always felt a touch ahead and way more behind. my life has honestly from my teen years felt like a messy blur and i think the internet is honestly to blame for that. but aging isnāt scary to me, it just is. and honestly canāt wait to be 21. i think gen alpha culture is also largely passed down and sometimes curated by gen z idk. gen alpha is like babies to me. idk i donāt feel old and maybe i can inpart some wisdom to the little alphas to go the hell outside. seriously. thereās a capitalistic market on your attention span but you still have control. ramble idk. i still have much to go and experience
20 isnāt old at all. iām about to turn 20 in a couple days. i donāt feel old at all, this is the youngest iāll ever be. i donāt care about the gen alpha shit because those kids have never known what the internet used to be and therefore i could care less about their opinions or feeling old because of them since these kids never had a a real chance of creating/experiencing things without being told what to feel/experience by ruthless, exploitative algorithms. as for the slang, slay and baller have been in the cultural zeitgeist since like 2016 (and honestly way before then bc itās aave) iāve been saying that shit since middle schoolš that came wayyyy before gen alpha i think theyāre just using it in really brain rotted ways but ngl these kids are funny as fuck
iām almost 23 and tbh i feel younger now than i did when i was 20-21. itās def a weird feeling to have like what the kids are up to not really include me anymore but i feel like as i get older i donāt care as much. also i think at this point iām much more surrounded by people who are my age or older than me instead of my age or younger like i was when i was in high school or college, and i realize just how much of my life (and my YOUNG life) i have ahead of me. i think itās much cooler to be a little bit out of the loop or a little cringe but have a stronger sense of self than to be completely tapped in but be 15 lol.
i just feel like me. i felt old when i was like 22-24 but now at 27 iām just like wow i havenāt been alive that long and actual old people just see me as a 20-something. also like yeah while i guess you get more mature with more life experience, your brain still feels the same somehow (maybe bc maturity isnāt linear or a truly measurable metric). i get why people begin to lose touch with things as they get older not bc theyāre too old to understand but itās like what use do i have knowing what cultural signifiers will get me approval from a 10, 15 or even 20 year old? i donāt even care what my peers think. i used to have an obsession with mustaches and bacon in middle school and said shit like ārawr means i love you in dinosaur xDā like i have no place judging the new stuff that the kids are saying today.
itās just so incredibly fun and i need a fun break during these frankly apocalyptic times ⦠not as distraction, but as rest and rejuvenation. i miss sophie so much, she truly shaped the world in all of these untouchable ways