Honestly, because of therapy and the work I am putting into myself I am allowing vulnerability to come in more. Lately I’ve been crying with friends and just letting myself feel my feels and it’s so cathartic.
When I was a teenager I would just sob inconsolably. To be fair, my life was pretty sob-worthy but it would go on for a really long time and I would just steep myself in misery. I think the most I’ve ever cried was as an adult, grieving the losses of two of my beloved cats to terminal illness; I would cry for hours with only a brief reprieve from the tears because I just felt gutted. At times in my life I’ve also completely repressed the tears altogether and I could feel the physical effects of holding them back, and that also made me miserable. Anyway it’s funny you asked this because I just cried in my first session with my new therapist which really took me by surprise!! If I’m in a therapy session or something comes up during yoga, I kind of just let it pass and move through me until it’s over, but that’s something I try to do outside of those settings as well. I think it’s important to find a middle ground in most cases of allowing yourself to cry without spiraling and wallowing in it.
I am not a very emotional person especially compared to my close friends who cry often and share their life and struggles to me
this year something happened to me that got me very sad and I cried hard for a long time
that day, I had felt like a dam broke in my mind and all of a sudden I began to cry over everything (tiktoks, stars, little women)
when I reflect on this, I feel sad that my happiness has seemingly decreased, however(!) I now feel much happier and healthier because I am letting out my emotions rather than keeping them to myself
I also have come to love the sensation of crying. it's a fun and interesting state to be in physically and mentally and it's really kinda cool
now instead of thinking that I am just less emotional than other people, I've realized that I too have the capacity to feel things and I'm happy ❤️🫧🌷