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nauseated. sweaty. in a confused haze. limbs feeling like jelly. pulses of cold. room spinning. just totally feeling like shit is when i feel closest to god. i love suffering. just absolute pure bottom of the barrel of human emotion. to be chewed up and spit out by this realm. dragged by the hair through the primordial soup. incarnating just to touch the wound. so fucking funny to me. all i can do is laugh
May 30, 2024

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Are u a water sign by chance
May 30, 2024
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buddleija earth sun and rising, water moon
May 31, 2024
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bisonspider Haha love it
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I feel so alive and I hate it so much at the same time. Also I'm unintentionally masochistic about this every time. Somehow I don't realize the reason I'm being a bitch is because I'm in pain. It comes on so slowly I assume I just need food or some water. I'm like a frog being placed in cool water that is slowly heated to boiling. I just let it happen until I'm gritting my teeth and wincing when I swing my head around too fast. Then like the genius I am, I go, wow, I think I have a headache. Now I'm laying on the floor as the acetaminophen slowly works it's way in. This will inevitably happen again. I probably am actually dehydrated.
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ok guys this is it i think it’s like all of my organs have been ripped out of my body except it didn’t kill me and now i have to just endure all the pain
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Gahhhhhhughhagagahhh the agony
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oh golly oh gee... I’m honored that anyone here on PI.FYI even recognizes me!! how sweet to be thought of. uhhhh as for who I am and what I’m about: my name is Ethyn, I’m 22, I’m American (flyover state), cultural Catholic, my favorite color is purple, of a forgiving disposition I’ve been using this app basically since launch (?) bc a tiktok mutual was clued in on the ground floor and I got the invite lol. I consider myself a very curious and open-minded person and something I love about this place is how committed it is to sincerity, such that I can no longer stand the casual cruelty and close-mindedness of almost all other social media. so PI.FYI is the only social media I’m active on anymore. I suppose the reason I’m more of a lurker is because I love getting to read recs from others (and I’m pretty liberal with the like button) but I feel strange reccing something if I’m not like 100% behind it lol. like there’s gonna be a test. I’ll also go two days or so without logging on and then I’ll catch up on all the recs I missed so it results in a spam for my mutuals <3 As far as interests, I generally consider myself to be an ooky and kooky type of person. I love art in all mediums, but especially films, books, paintings, and poetry. I’ve rec’d PLENTY of all four if you care to take a look :) I’ll make the occasional lifestyle rec but most of the stuff I talk about on here is art. Lol since the earliest days of this site I’ve kinda harped on the function of story as the thing that makes us human, and myth as manifestations of the collective unconscious. This is one of my most foundational beliefs and lenses for the world. Another common theme you’ll see in my recs is my love for the classics. Classic movies, classic books, all of it!! I think if something is classic there’s almost always a reason, and I think it’s important to understand foundations of influence for art that comes after. Everything is in context!!!! Everything is interdependent!!!! some of my favorite films: The Wicker Man (1973), Goodfellas (1990), Uncle Boonmee Who Can Recall His Past Lives (2010), Viy (1967), Nosferatu (1922), The Banshees of Inisherin (2022) some of my favorite literature: All of Edgar Allan Poe, Life of Pi by Yann Martel, Ishmael by Daniel Quinn, the work of William S. Burroughs, the work of Yasunari Kawabata, and all world myth categorically. I want to affirm becoming!!!! I want to exist in service of the liberation of the full breadth of human potential!!! I want to be ripped screaming and bloody from the womb!!!! I will incarnate just to touch the wound ten thousand more times!!!!
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study the folklore and myth of your actual local region. live your daily life under the logic of fairytales. communicate as heavily as possible in proverbs and riddles. humans are a storytelling creature and there is a reason these archetypes and motifs appear to humans across times/cultures/places
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Substack that emails you the entirety of Bram Stoker’s Dracula in real time. since the novel is composed of diary entries, it sends you the diary entries day by day so you can read it on the same timeline in which it takes place. it started earlier this month but it’s not too late to catch up!! or you could wait until next may. classics can be intimidating but this gives you the opportunity to read it in daily segments in your email and follow along in an immersive way :)
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