sometimes itās funny to listen to songs youāve loved before when experiencing the thing the song is about. you know how they say that once you listen to ribs at different points of your life you see it from different angles? well, something like that is happening to me right now.
itās like iāve never been this deep into yearning someone. itās so weird and confusing. being in love is so different from everything i experienced honestly. at the same time, i think it feels exactly how i expected it to feel. and, i thought iād never be able to fall in love, growing up on a town where everyone was exactly the same. the thought that maybe i could have met a boy who i could possibly like was crazy.
now, iām older than i was when i had that though, and meeting someone who i could possibly be falling in love with has changed my perspective in things. i yearn for love more than i ever did before. i think about the excitement and fluorescing feeling of the possibility all of the time.
but, itās everywhere, with itās ups and downs. the excitement turns into sadness. the possibilities are moving me, but at the same time, they take me places of broken and harsh feelings. i know this is probably normal, but iām sensitive. i believe i feel things more than other people do.
so know iām left with myself, chances, excitement, and harsh feelings. i think iām hungry for his love, which is not something i wrote myself. thatās what lead me to the begging. listening to lover, you shouldāve come over now that i feel this strange urge to be with a real person changed completely the way i see the song.
very long post sorry!! just putting my feelings out there hehehe š