i was actually just having this convo with someone! i find that people who do have a monologue like me find it hard to believe people donāt. iāve heard you guys think in feelings and connections like a flow chart but like how do you do that without words lol. for me the voice doesnāt belong to anyone! itās not mine, itās not gendered, itās not identifiedā¦itās just a voice. i also find people without an internal monologue seem to think we have a narrator dictating our every action but it a bit more abstract than that.
my brain is never quiet as thereās always a voice processing my emotions, reactions and perceptions at all times. but the processing isnāt complete thoughts with proper punctuation, just a constant barrage of information, working in tandem with images and feelings. its likely why iām prone to over thinking and snowballing (when i was on SSRIs briefly, it all definitely got more quiet up here).
also, iāve noticed a lot of people who donāt have a monologue also canāt do the classic āpicture the appleā test but is that the case? if you can picture the apple do you think pictorially? i just couldnāt imagine not having my consciousness mutter in the back of my head constantly.
Sep 30, 2024
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itās as if i was talking to someone in a long-winded way but not mindful of how much iām talking? itās basically that to myself ALL DAY. as someone with adhd, itās also kind of all over the place when i donāt take my meds or have coffee, bc i can get so distracted lol. also when i type things i read them āaloudā in my head. a lot of people call being able to talk in your head an āinner monologueā which is exactly how it feels to me!
i can also imagine/āhearā other peopleās voices in my head, kind of like a memory. i can imagine them them saying whatever but mostly just what theyāve actually said to me. and i donāt have the best memory lol but my memories are very vivid, visually and auditory
i know aphantasia is the inability to picture things in your head (my sister has it), itās surprising that not having an inner monologue doesnāt have an official term!
Oct 2, 2024
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Canāt stop saying things like āāordering an americano and a chocolatine for breakfastāā āāāwashing your handsāāā āāāopting to not wear a scarf today because itās 2 degreesāāā to myself
I swear itās like a CBT technique but better
Feb 1, 2024
I don't have many friends from severe CTPSD and probably a hint of autism. At least I had an ex yell at me that I'm not normal, while I was standing on a sidewalk and holding a baby.
He kept bringing up issues and problems, while I brought up practical solutions. He did not like that.
I had another ex who very sweetly interpreted body language for me in real time. But then he wanted me to speak/respond in certain ways he'd watched on TV. I read books more than I watched shows growing up.
I'm sorry I'm not normal. I'm sorry I'm not programmed in the same language.
I often felt people were speaking a foreign tongues, despite us all using English. The hidden/true meanings of what they said seemed like common knowledge to them, while I took it at face value, or struggled to translate what they were really telling me.
Lately I'm running on vibes and actions. Words are whatever.
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she canāt see my bank account so itās ok.
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started writing this a few hours ago when i first saw this ask, then decided against posting but i've since changed my mind. there really is no justification for it outside of entitlement. even from a selfish lens, there's no long term benefit to its usage. it harms the world and culture in more ways than one.
a.) the water and energy usage that isn't a secret at this point. "no ethical consumption under capitalism" yadda yadda and yeah corporations are extremely culpable in the state of the environment but there really is no need for chatgpt and the planet is already too delicate at the moment.
b.) the exploitation of workers in the global south. this program is not just a computer figuring it all out, there are in fact humans behind it. it reminds me of the acceptance of fast fashion and how people have the tendency to divorce the idea of the garment worker from the garment they wear when all clothing is handmade in some way, shape or form. you need hands to man a sewing machine, you need human eyes to moderate content. also, content moderation can be a thankless job with psychological repercussions.
c.) the erosion of social skills, humanity and media literacy...this one is very personal. like, you have a cushy email job but can't write an email? you need a computer and a worker in kenya to get paid a dollar an hour to figure out a daily routine for you? i've seen the program churn out blatantly incorrect information. fine tuning a prompt or chat or whatever to give you the exact (possibly incorrect) answer you need isn't really that much less work than sharpening your research skills by cracking open a dictionary or using boolean search keys in google. again, the main issue with this kind of stuff is the entitlement to convenience, with no thought towards the repercussions within and outside of us. we are losing major recipes (critical thinking and media literacy) here, people!
i probably did an iffy job are coherently articulating my thoughts here but i am in fact, human. and thatās the beauty of it all.
Oct 1, 2024