it started off being a joke but now at every gaspable moment i gasp. i can’t hold it in. i’m starting to embarrass my friends but it’s so fun to be dramatic.
everytime i managed to somewhat control myself id look at my friend and then we were both back at square one
honestly it’s the best kind of laugh, especially when you inadvertently feed off your friends laughter and then you’re both stuck in an endless loop of stifling and choking down your fits
had a friend compare my laugh to a hyena’s and that comment really stuck on me and turned my laugh into an insecurity :( and i frequently will get the comment from my mom to not ”laugh too loud” or to laugh more “ladylike” …
and i just saw an interview where neil newbon explains how to do astarion from bg3’s voice and he specifically says that he uses a laugh for him that is “ear piercing, crowd stopping and conversation obliterating” but he then describes the laugh as haughty, raucous
but most importantly unapologetic?
and that’s really sticking with me now. to remember that my larger than laugh insane squeal of a laugh that is just like astarion’s in “coversation obliterating” levels is also unapologetic. and i deserve to let the world know when i’m happy and joyous
they are so fun and i personally love mine. i have pins, my own drawings, postcards, pictures, tickets, etc. its truly a piece of artwork at this point.