for some reason i think next year is gonna be great
ins:
- getting money
- being able to save that money
- creative workshopping... plotting... planning... developing...
- playing to my strengths and accepting my limits
- writing notes by hand
- sticking to plans and seeing them through, short or long term
- finding new tofu recipes to try
- make more projects im proud of, more consistently
- max chilling
- dumb as hell slice of life anime
- reading curriculum on time
- hitting the theatres a few times a month at least
- loving what i love.... unconditionally and without embarrassment....
- having FUN outs:
- the fear of wasting my life the second i get time to relax and unwind
- caffeine addiction (only gonna be drinking monster cuz its yummy instead)
- creative jealousy
- fast food
- believing my own desires and interests are unimportant or not cared for
- unstable work/life balances
- greening out
- overthinking what other people think about me
ins;
β§ read more
β§ wander when i can, aimlessly with no set goal
β§ lie in silence a lot and stare at the ceiling
β§ become connected with those whose company i truly value
β§ observing, rather than commenting
β§ crafting! exploring my creative side and interests
β§ setting smaller and more realistic goals
β§ exploring music and finding new sounds
β§ volunteering more and giving back :D outs;
β§ filling my life with constant screen time
β§ bad habits
β§ giving time and energy to temporary and draining people
β§ overthinking
β§ constant pursuit of every goal I have all of the time
β§ tearing myself apart with thoughts and extreme pressure on myself note to self:
read back over in 2026.
even achieving one is ok, don't grade your life, if your happy I'm happy
Ins:
-earth day celebration all year (not just one day)
-study honors chem as a hobby not a chore
-bake more things (not cookies and muffins like always)
-discover more artists
-more bagel flavors
-crazy jewelry
-watercolor more than once a year Outs:
-being anxious about everything (guilty π)
-constant embarrassment
-being too self conscious
-being scared of some foods
-daydreaming and not taking action
-doom scrolling
Ins:
* shooting delusionally high for my goals
* heat styling my hair
* further investing in friendships and other relationships
* long-term gratification
* vetting; divesting time and energy wisely
* top-level maslowian needs, third eye and crown chakra activation, etc Outs:
* giving myself too freely (Not in a sex way in an every other way way)
* trying to fit square pegs into round holes (also not in a sex way in a metaphorical way)
* dressing purposefully frumpy
* being a huge bitch; paradoxically, also being too accommodating and understanding
"Last night I dreamed about you. What happened in detail I can hardly remember, all I know is that we kept merging into one another. I was you, you were me. Finally you somehow caught fire."
the feeling i get after finishing a really good movie or finding a new artist to love finding joy and inspiration in the achievements of my friends and family, and knowing that they're proud of me like i am proud of them
