it's actually better to be weird! confuse people, be ugly, passionate, be YOU. i spent so much time trying to be perfect and liked by everyone and that way i just got a lot of shallow connections because i refused to let people see the real me and get to really know me. it's silly to chase perfection as it donesn't exist and being weird is better than being boring :p
do it for the bit!
worst case scenario? they don‘t like you (thats ok!). maybe you didnt gain anything but you certainly havent lost anything either... actually id still argue that you *have* gained something by allowing yourself the self compassion to be imperfect (heh heh).
best case scenario? you‘re with good company and as time goes on with said good company, you realize what you perceive to be flaws are really not flaws at all, but a part of the wonderful weave of traits and quirks that makes up you (and everyone else too!) just maybe with a little less confidence.
rest assured, the confidence can be worked on. but attracting the life you want with people who inspire you and fill your heart with the warmth of 1000 suns starts with you being your most beautiful & authentic self! warts and all!
weirdos n freaks rise up!
i've been struggling a lot lately and one thing my therapist really stressed is that i need to push myself to do things i love even though i don't get the same satisfaction i once got
so today i got my coloured pencils out after a loong time and started drawing and i already feel a bit better
so i wanted to share this small step
it's not the best art but its art <3