I force myself to romanticize my schoolwork otherwise i will not do it. if i'm not pretending to be a nyu student who is super pretentious, the seasonal depression will drown me and i will fail the semester. alternatively, with work i have to pretend i am like a randal/dante esque (Clerks 1994) character to make it through my shift.
taping this picture above my desk so I can feel less like a desperate nerd cramming for chem and more like a cool wizard majestically studying the arcane arts
i struggled with this and was too excited about college ending but i decided a few weeks before that Iād actually miss this time and i began telling myself that Iād never get this version of me back again ā it honestly shifted how I saw those last few weeks + i felt more present after that instead of feeling like i was already living in the future (not very practical i know but i hope this helps <3)
i'm graduating and i don't know, i want to do more. my summer has not been productive. i've been depressed, listening to bo burnham makes it worse or maybe better. eating like i live in a prison, to be fair my apartment is a bit of a shoebox... is it weird to say i miss being stressed about school. does anyone else feel like ur the only one not having fun? i wish i cared about anything (=^ć§^=)
i love smiling at random people i make eye contact. i feel like a flirty little character in a b movie from like 2004 and i love it. maybe some people think it's creepy and like off-putting but i wouldn't be mad at that either.
i love jackass sooo bad. cannot describe the rush of pure joy I get out of watching grown men maim each other. the movies, the behind the scenes movies, the tv show, wildboyz, viva la bam, i love it all!!! spike jonze and jeff tremaine are my heroes!
every1 should stop buying books and start going to the library. we as a society need to hold barnes and noble and other bookstores accountable for ruining the aesthetic of bookstores. every1 boycott barnes and noble until they revert back to the you've got mail (1998) vibe. also the library is so awesome! like i'm never buying a book that i haven't read before or a movie i haven't seen before ever again!