having a crush that gets you out of bed in the morning. attraction is the animating force of the universe. enmeshed and quantum entanglement through flirty txts and touching knees. anyway.
i enjoy having a crush. it's an incredible amount of masochistic suffering that I put myself through, but oh my goodness is it fun. there's this tutor of mine who looks like if clark kent was written by marguerite duras and i want to take a bite of him, just sink my teeth into him. i'm so obsessed with how beautiful this man is and i love the energy that gives him. shallow as this might sound, but adonis types like him just tickle my fancy in the best way possible.
I went snorkeling for the first time today. The ocean is vast and I love and admire her for being awe inspiring. But like any big beautiful queen I was very intimidated by her. The first to jump in, I looked past our boat into the blue nothingness that sent abject fear and loneliness through my blood. Fighting against every primal urge i started swimming towards the raised coral reefs and was greeted by an explosion of colorful aliens. "this is space" i thought. Striped fish of every color, lil lobster guys and an octopus. weird! i was in love, i wish my eyes were like chameleons so i could look in every direction. this was better than sitting on the beach. this was better than sex. this was the greatest moment of my life.
anyway.
anyway.
anyway.
it was pretty cool 10/10 would do again. 🐠
Have you ever let a text sit for too long and then its so late.
and so late.
and so late.
You couldnt possibly text them back now.
You can! You should!
Anyways.
