sobbing and feeling like i'm only myself when i'm sad and that sadness somehow always going back to that one person i never fully moved on from. lol (and the fear of the future and wasting my youth. but that's too deep) bechdel test? i have failed once again
either it’s been imbedded in my dna or it’s the circumstances i was placed in. im somehow always crying during movies when a character is going through something devastating, eyes watering because a song is “so good”, or even silent and trying to soak up the moment because i know i‘ll remember forever.
Sometimes you cry on the toilet at the art museum and write a shitty poem to your truest self in your notes app and go back out there and hope your friends can’t tell you’ve been crying but also hope they can
talking to someone for a few days and being absolutely terrified that it'll go wrong again sucks but i'm giving myself the opportunity to love fr!!! or get lovebombed!!
