This poem is so striking and pulls on my heart strings in a violent way I haven’t felt in most other writing, especially the excerpts below I want to live longer. I want to love you longer, say it again, I want to love you longer & sing that song again. & get pummeled by the sea & come up breathing & hot sun & those walks & those kidsĀ  & hard laugh, clap your hands. I am not ready to die yet. & when I go or you go, let me see you again somewhere, or you see me. Isn’t that you, old friend, my love? you might say, while swimming in some ocean to the small fish at your ankle. Or, Weren’t you my sister once? I might say to the sad, brown dog who follows me down the street. Or to the small boy or old woman or horse eye or to the tree. I know I knew I know you, too.
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I was so unaware of the privilege I had to be in a workshop with her my first semester of college, she's a saintly presence in a room
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fetadata That must have been an amazing experience 🄲 living thru you!!!
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oh my gosh this is so good. really packs a punch. thank you so much for sharing šŸ’š
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bigstrongguy of course!! Glad you like it too! :’>
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