goddd the first few weeks of uni are supposed to be difficult and awful i know but can we just skip to the part where we’re all friends and know each other on a good enough level to casually talk to each other if we need to i cannot do the awkward silences for much longer my yap yearns to be unleashed 💔💯.
can`t believe im saying this but, im so exited to go back to uni after spending an entire month at home doing abseloutly 0 social activities
to be fair i did have a great time with myself and even tho im an introvert, not connecting with the outside world is not good for my mental state
its kinda like a black hole, pulling me deeper and deeper, the more i stay like this the more im scared to go out and talk to ppl
i dont wanna undo all the progress i made this year
when i remember how i was last year... feeling shitty all the time , scared of ppl, 0 friends
i dont want that to be me again
IM COMING OUT OF MY SHEEEELLLLLLL AND IM NOT SCARED
i crave ppl i crave connections i crave friendship
and honestly cringing at every little interaction i had at the end of the day is much better than sleeping knowing i wasted another day of my short little human life, leaving no memories for my older self to lok back at
For me uni was so different from any earlier education. People are way less close than in school (unless you will make effort to do so), are various ages, drop out, have their own life to care about. You will be more on your own than before. But there will be some small groups of friends forming - some will be party/drinking, some will not. Some will share your ideas/lifestyle and you will naturally be drawn to them. It just kinda happens on its own! And I highly recommended joining clubs and activities you find interesting - those are my most memorable things from uni!
stress unites you and your peers. it’s a beautiful thing. you’re going to fail this test? no way! me too!! you don’t know what’s happening? me neither!!! it’s a camaraderie forged in late night tears and blank stares at the professor. (then that one person comes along and ruins the mood by exclaiming that the contents are “easy” or “not too bad” while you’re left to sob at your lack of knowledge).
unfortunately where i live makes it extremely difficult to go anywhere without a car so i’m stuck at home most of the time and am prone to bedrotting and falling into slumps (for multiple days in a row 😬) but something that never fails to make me even the least bit productive is staying out of my room for as much of the day as possible. the second i‘ve gotten ready for the day i grab what i need then sit in a space with lots of natural light so that it feels easier to get up and do stuff cause i’m already out of my room, and to stay awake/avoid the afternoon naps that usually turn into full day naps 💫 this also helps with keeping my room clean cause when i walk into my room after not seeing it for a while i get a real sense just how messy and cluttered it is 😍
nobody asked but i think you should know i successfully finished reading an apprenticeship or the book of pleasures after some TRIFLING months…praise be 🤲