Hereās a link to my post about it which links to my little essay lol. Gore Vidal is everything to me⦠a couple of months ago I also got really into AnaĆÆs Nin because I see a lot of myself in her and Iāve already experienced significant transformative growth from her influence. Iām writing about that soon!
Oh sick pi.fyi kismet lol. This was a great read, thank you for sharing. Really enjoyed your thoughts on constructing intellectual barriers to shield oneself from the horrors of intimacy⦠I know this too well. Even my briefly adopted stance of enlightened anti-intellectualism turned out to be the same barrier in a different packaging. Big respect to both of yours fearless faith in speaking your mind, I admire and envy it
hhtthhtthhttht thank you for taking the time to read and for your kind words!!! š«¶ itās so crazy the lengths we can go to in order to build walls inside ourselves and the mental gymnastics and copium that leads to and a lot of people never escape it. Harrowing reminder⦠I feel you because I had a poptimism stage š I would recommend reading his autobiography Palimpsest itās really interesting because you can see him get soooo close and yetā¦. And thatās actually what led me to AnaĆÆs Nin who for all of her problems was really successful in breaking out of that trap and fully embodying life
This just poured out of me over my morning coffee as I was reflecting on the transformation Iāve undergone over the last several years and very recent transformations Iāve entered into (more on that later when I write about my new muse)! Itās about why Gore Vidal is so deeply important to me not just as a distant relative but as a role model and cautionary tale. I hope you enjoy and would love to hear your thoughts as always š āLearning more about Vidal and absorbing his words, the sharpness and certainty of his opinions, I felt as if I had discovered a kindred spirit. I always felt like I was too much for people, too arrogant and self-possessed, too singular, too disagreeable, that these were all pathological aberrations I needed to correct and hopefully I could finally be normal somedayābut seeing these traits in Gore Vidal made me feel proud because they were what made him who he was.ā
Learning about this icon per Marlowe Granados' newsletter recommendation and I'm obsessed- also Marlowe Granados' substack is a gem. It's mostly about being glamorous in our current times (hard to do) https://www.lrb.co.uk/the-paper/v40/n17/joanne-o-leary/what-makes-a-waif?utm_source=substack&utm_medium=email
My dad teases me about how when I was a little kid, my favorite thing to do when I was on the landline phone with somebodyābe it a relative or one of my best friendsāwas to breathlessly describe the things that were in my bedroom so that they could have a mental picture of everything I loved and chose to surround myself with, and where I sat at that moment in time. Perfectly Imperfect reminds me of that so thanks for always listening and for sharing with me too š