In five years i hope that i still see the joy in life that I do bow, because it took me half my life to find it, and I want to keep it.
I hope to have a job in research through my university, and maybe travel the world through it.
I want to continue to help people through the job I have currently and continue to save lives and help people find some light and hope in living.
But i also hope that in five years I change. I want to grow through the years, and i hope for the better but if not then so be it and I hope i still get an opportunity to learn something from it and find good in it.
Feb 28, 2025
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i’m quite scared of thinking about this, so i’m really only mustering up a reply in hopes that years from now i’ll look back on this and either think “aw” or “lmao she has no idea what’s in store”
in five years i’ll be 28 🧘♀️ i’m hoping i have had a chance to do some fulfilling travel. particularly other countries, maybe solo, for extended periods of time, really just immersing myself in humanity and the experience of being and community. i also hope i will have lived in a new city by then. columbus can’t tie me down 4everrr
i’m sure i will have fallen in love. maybe even again and again. hopefully first, with myself.
career wise, i would have liked to go back to grad school by then. but if not, there’s never a timeline on education. and education doesn’t have to come from formal institutions! so whether i have continued in higher education like i hope to or not, i hope i will have continued to learn something new every day.
in more concrete terms, i hope to continue working in nonprofit like i am right now for a couple more years before going back to school for my doctorate so i can become a professor. we will see if that’s the case! i just hope wherever i end up, i show myself grace and i am surrounded by love. i’m already filled with love, so i know it will come back to me in abundance someday! ❤️🔥
Feb 28, 2025
I turned 21 in february 2020, so, ya know. My world changed quick.
But truly I just remember trying various things, trying to define and undefine myself. Feeling what it felt like to stick to my guns, then readjust them. I was in the middle of what would be a 2.5 year relationship. I didn't kid myself with picturing a big future anymore than what was sweet, which was wonderful. I was living with a partner for the first time and felt like I knew what to do, like I was experienced enough for all the problems which faced me. but really I was just experienced enough to start so many things.
I was constantly bouncing between total pride and complete faliure. Playing house in a house I was actually renting with friends. Experimenting with what grocery shopping for myself meant to my life, redifining how I was going to live my days in the future.
The best thing I did in my 21st year of life was not be too mean to myself for not committing, and just committing to new things. I would go dance in the park, go on walks, edit music. All things I wish I did on the regular but regardless, by trying new things, it made it so much easier to pick them up, because I had a frame of reference for the world.
I loved being 20, as depressed as I was. That specific creativity is gone. But now I am 25 and know how to weild my own magic. The depth I have always felt within my soul has farther definition. Its like I put on glasses in a 7th dimention. Don't underestimate the beautiful growth ahead. Yes you are an adult, equipped hopefully to start so many new things. But keep up that internal work, and the years will be bountiful towards true inner peace.
And soo many more new tools to better learn how to tackle issues while still feeling like yourself.
u got this. stay true to urself but be flexibl with redifining who that is.
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Jun 12, 2024
I think I'm at the point of the life where I can finally feel grateful for the direction things are going, which is weird because if you asked me four years ago about the current standing of myself and everything, I'd be confused. And I think I have time to thank for my many epiphanies.
Time is scary, and that's what haunts me when I go to sleep. However, it can be a double edged sword. Though I may panic about the goodbyes I'll never properly say, the inevitable truth that I will no longer be a teenage girl and impending adulthood, time has graced me with a few things.
Instead of thinking waking up as a chore, I wake up eager to do things even if it's a mundane chore, to learn about a new obsession, to read, to love, to yearn.
The bonds I've formed, no matter how small or quick they dissappear. I'm lucky to say that I've learned at least one things from people I've formed relationships with, some miniscule compared to others. From these I've accepted to be raw, authentic, and to be present rather than to lose myself in the past or future
The ability to see what I've accomplished rather than what I haven't, to be compassionate to myself above all which I wish was something I had as a young adolescent.
I wish I could go back in time to thirteen year old me, even in a dream, and tell her to accept and live even in the midst of hell being a teenage girl. To take the risks and how even though the end of the fall is far, she'll have something to land on. To reassure that things do end up in her favor and instruct her to do the hardest thing ever: wait.
Jun 8, 2025
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Find happiness in the little things. Bask in the sun rise, take a moment to people watch grocery shopping or a cafe. Go on drives to nowhere in particular with your favorite playlist blasting. Read plays to a stuff animal audience and really dramatize the characters.
Jan 20, 2025
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We have one dying strip mall in this town and my friends and I just go there to wonder the few open stores left. We don't by anything we just peruse the places, make small talk with the shop keepers, sit and chat about the closed down shops on the benches.
I also frequent the antique stores, and just look at the history thats brought in. Sometimes the store keeper drops by while you look and offer facts on some of the items.
They get me out of the house and keep my mind off work and they're sometimes more accommodating than a coffee shop.
Jan 20, 2025
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I was uncertain if i met all the credit requirements as i had to petition alot of classes but my graduation application went through so I'll be graduating!
Jan 25, 2025