I think I care very deeply. My care for other people consumes me and motivates my every day life. It’s the reason I’m pursuing the career I am, despite the economics of it all. I think it’s why I sometimes struggle in modern day dating. I don’t have a casual bone in my body — I care way too much, but I wouldn’t want it any other way. We have been socialized to not care about others more than we care about ourselves, and I fear that will be our downfall.
Engaging with myself critically has actually cost me so much of my life. I've been made to feel as if I were an idiot or simply crazy but I live apologetically and carefully because they simply do not know... I hope they know this is me caring.
the internet is teaching you apathy.
now this isn’t an extreme opinion where i believe everyone is suffering a lack of caring. it isn’t everyone. but a very wise brooklyn dj once told me, “in a room of 40 [people], the one screaming is always the one to be heard”. the nonchalant epidemic is the screaming person in a room of people who once cared so deeply. i often ask my younger friends what their plans are for the future, i myself am someone who is in a constant state of “chalant”ness especially for my long term goals.
i dunno.
do you even care ?
not really
why? why won’t you care? when you were a child and someone brought up your favorite tv show- you cared, when you fell and scraped your knee on the asphalt- you cared, when you got your heart broken for the first time you were so so angry- you cared. where did that fervor go? passion, empathy, creativity, the essence of the human spirit, it all stems from daring to give a fuck about anything. caring so intensely is the most badass thing a person can do, so hug your friends, tell your girlfriend you love her, start a new medium. start caring about something so much that it becomes the center of your world, and then care a little more.
Sounds bizarre, but as an anxious, ambitious, type A girlie, there’s nothing that I want more than to be able to shut my brain off and have someone ‘provide’ for me (not financially, but like, metaphorically). Able to fix my computer problem? Hot. Can build me a shelf? Hot. Just generally knows how to navigate the world? Very hot. Competence is underrated.
Rewatched this on Valentine’s Day when I was feeling down and it made me giggle for the first time in weeks. this movie is inexplicably human and to an extent everything we are told we are not supposed to do — waste away a day and fall in love with a stranger. In the end, the movie is about giving in — to ourselves, to our deepest desires no matter how impractical.
