It's so awkward being in a very social class when you dont have friends in said class. My english class for some reason is made up of five different friend groups and I am in none of them, it makes work very awkward because while everyone is talking and laughing, im the weirdo sitting by myself just getting work done. It definetly doesnt help when people look up and stare at me like im some pity needing soul. I have friends just not in that class.
School sucks obviously, but I miss when simply knowing someone in science class made them a friend. Didnt need deep complex understand in relationships, just needed people to tell me my ideas for new sandwiches were good.
Looking back I considered almost everyone I went to school with a friend even if the sentiment wasnโt shared. Adulthood made casual relationships almosy impossible, near strangers canโt be my friend anymore
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i know they can understand me on a different level & it makes them so much more approachable. if we share developmental lore i can feel way more comfortable with them. sometimes you just know that you would have been great friends with someone if you'd both met earlier in your timelines, and that endears me to someone a lot.
If I believe I've failed myself i have to ask: "am i mad at myself?", "why do i think I failed?", "was it possible to not fail"?(i ask this because sometimes failure is unavoidable), and most importantly: "can i forgive myself?". Sometimes it may be hard to forgive yourself but think about it like this. If someone did what you did, failed like you did, would you forgive them? Would you be less harsh one someone else? If your kind to others, why aren't you kind to yourself? Remember: your a person with feelings. Now, if you feel like you've failed someone else, why? What makes you think your a failure? Did you do something, or is someone acting different and you just think you've failed? You have to remember that sometimes people just get mad and sometimes you cant change that. If you actually did something, apologize, if they don't accept the apology, drop it. You aren't responsible for others acceptance.
