I like to say that delulu is the solulu, but that doesn’t always work, and when it doesn’t, I like to yearn. I think yearning in general is healthy; it helps you focus on what your values are. anyway, I’m adding a piece of writing (made with the help of online magnetic poetry) that encapsulates how I felt when yearning for someone: My delirious dream sleep symphony whispers an ache of cool lazy time,
Bare together.
Though you did not let me show you raw love,
So I cry elaborate sordid language,
As I’m adorned with a gown instead of your hands.
Falling, with my mattress of music to save me.
Your absence rings in my ears,
Hurting more than your presence ever could. but yearning doesn’t have to be about someone, it can be about something, an animal, an idea, etc. I love pieces of media that include yearning too. oh and here’s a quote that I’m fond of: a man’s reach should exceed his grasp.
“There is so much I have to say, but fear plagues me of your nonchalance to my heart’s iteration as I desire to have you by my side. So I write letters of your existence to fill the void for I wish to have you with me as the days grow brighter and as the nights become imbued with a navy pigment to the sky.”
~ Onyi
Are they the tingling feelings that you look back at or the fragments of memories that you struggle to picture in your head? Do you ever miss a person that you don’t even know? Perhaps it is an idea, a concept or a thought. You are trying to create the perfect person that will understand you, tame you and love you just like how you would. You do not seek for reciprocated love - you always feel like you want to give more and love more. It is your way of loving and who is to complain? However, a part of you aches knowing that someday when the time comes and you lay down onto a field taking your final breaths, you probably would have wanted someone to just whisper on how much they adore you, just like how ‘night breezes seem to whisper ‘I love you.’’. Gentleness but also full with affection.
Somebody who can withstand you during your energetic moments and your burnt out times. Someone who will stay next to you no wonder what; someone who is not afraid to present their emotions for you and only you. Someone who will try everything just to love you, get back to you no matter what. And I promise, from the deepest roots of my heart, that I will dearly love them where every moment would feel like the first time - the rushed heartbeats, flowing hormones, aching hearts and locked eyes. We will love the way that we do - and it may be similar to others - but in the end, we know that what we have is different and special for ourselves. Beethoven’s ‘Fur Elise’. The strong faith in love that was driven between Schumann, Brahms and Clara. Like how one composes songs dedicated for another and one paints in shades of pastels reminiscing of their significant other. Like the love letters written in ink that took quite a while to pick out at the store, wrapped in delicate enveloped covered with kiss marks. Like the singing and humming dedicated for the ears of the other. It is what you want, and therefore you wait - for who knows how long, expecting that person, who will achieve accomplishment throughout a journey together with you. ———————
Hello! This is my first entry hereeee:) The picture was carefully brought here from pinterest and was in my album, I do not know any individual in the photo but they gave me great inspiration on writing this piece. The photo really speaks warmth and radiates energy IMO - so romantic!
Does this make me feel like yearning?
Not sure.
Maybe some combination of:
kerouac hungry
chipped porcelain coffee cup
sand, beach, book towel
windy sand in mouth
squinty eyed Eastwood
her
longing for her
I see her in the mistakes
in the distance
in the future
taking a punch
landing a punch
taking another punch, then a kick
smiling through bloody teeth
getting back up
going to the diner
yearning
longing hope
even the smallest things may not seem to matter in the moment, but when you fast forward a bit, you may be trying to grasp the memory without any luck. writing things down, taking pictures, collecting, etc. is all so important.
my parents used to judge me and think I was weird for talking to myself when I was younger. I’m sure they still do, but they’re less vocal about it as they used to be. for context, I’m an only child, so talking to myself was nice for when I was bored or whatnot. it’s also helpful for sorting through my thoughts. it’s good to get things out when I don’t feel like talking to anyone in particular. I like to think of it as my own personal podcast.
I’m so glad I found this app. I was looking for a place where I can share more about myself without feeling judged by the people around me. now people can feel a connection towards me being truly myself instead of the mask I’ve been conditioned to put on for others. I imagine handing someone I’ve just met a paper with a link to this profile on it as a fun experiment