you can’t examine it directly, only through its side effects. the feeling itself is beyond words, but we can make rough estimations of it through its byproducts. for me, the biggest one is a quieting feeling in my soul, like the thing in my chest stops kicking for a second when i’m with them. my constant desire to find the next big shiny thing fades away, and all i care about is understanding them as well as one human can understand another.
that, and the feeling that you get when you’re on one of those damned frogger rides and it drops from the top. everything in you screams that something is wrong but you cling to your harness and for a moment you laugh and you scream and you fly.
