i’ll never have peace of mind. everything is always happening to me and maybe that’s my fault. i wish things were easier in my head but they aren’t. maybe i need to learn from it.
sometimes i get to a point where i’ve done all i can do about something, and i get so anxious in the waiting, so i have to remind myself of this. things will work out the way they need to.
Starting to love this life but I’m still dulling over leaving some things that I think should be behind me but struggling to accept it, idk if this makes sense
kinda need to take a moment to disconnect myself from the rhythm of heavy emotions that i’ve been feeling. everything feels like a burden and i just want to move onward. i wanna be free and wild like i expect myself to be, but being who i am, it comes with other side effects. i think too much. more than i wish i did. i just want to be able to do and feel everything without thinking i might be too much. those that make sense?????
i’ve never been in love before. liking boys feels sooo strange. i knew it left me in this deep misunderstanding of what love should feel like. now that i think (think!!) i’m falling in love, there’s all these other questions in my head. and i’ve been a fan of coming-of-age films and books for forever, because to me, i think i was trying to fill that void in my soul of wanting to be loved. now, things are all around, rumors were spread, and i just want him and i to be okay, as friends. first, i think comes the friendship. maybe it will turn into love. in my head, i think i hope deeply, but for now… friendship.
