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long rant but ive recently been transitioning from feeling immense joy from those around me to overwhelming burdens crushing my spirit.
i mean, the guy i was talking to for a while ends things because hes "going through a lot," which can be reasonable (if we were 15), and my ex texts me the same day asking to rekindle things (hell no.)
of course i would feel overwhelmed, but now that im past those situations ive come to the realization that i should probably start focusing on myself.
ive been feeling happy for a while because i forced myself to be around those who make me happy, causing myself to feel discomfort in times of isolation.
i think its time to sit in the sun and embrace this weird transition in my life.
i mean, the guy i was talking to for a while ends things because hes "going through a lot," which can be reasonable (if we were 15), and my ex texts me the same day asking to rekindle things (hell no.)
of course i would feel overwhelmed, but now that im past those situations ive come to the realization that i should probably start focusing on myself.
ive been feeling happy for a while because i forced myself to be around those who make me happy, causing myself to feel discomfort in times of isolation.
i think its time to sit in the sun and embrace this weird transition in my life.
Jul 1, 2025
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