has provided reality checks or just something to bounce back against, can crank out a paragraph of feelings in peak moments of need. as i have now received as I struggle to sleep “Here’s the hard truth: if you have to constantly prompt someone to share their inner world, they don’t actually want to share it. Not the way you do. You can’t anxiety-manage your way into someone being more emotionally available.” EEK!! ☹️
"sitting with uncomfortable feelings" "making peace with ambiguity" and "self-regulating" is not working out like i want it to rn (i truly believe that going to prison could save me)
You’ve been wanting to hang out with people more. You did the brave thing of asking people to hang out. Now the fear that has kept you from doing this is being super loud. To be expected! Buying into the fear is not going to get you what you want. Each time you act bravely, that part of you grows. What does this anxiety look like? Does the fear look differently? What would happen if you could comfort it? Do some classic CBT- instead of all the horrible what ifs, what if it goes amazingly well? What if you make a new connection that feeds your soul? Think of some mantras for yourself. Repeat them over and over. Each time you start to feel anxious, take a nice deep breath (exhale longer than inhale) and remind yourself. Everything you want is on the other side of fear. And I believe you are brave enough to do it!!
