or become less cluttered.. which i am not contributing to by any means (continuously booking my weeks, picking up new projects constantly). slowing down would let me think more clearly, but i'm realizing i need to carve moments of stillness for myself because life will never slow down until i die!
it seems like time fly faster and faster and i realised maybe it's because i always live in the what coming instead of the now. so i'm trying to slow things down a little, slow my mind down and enjoying the day for what it is. sounds cliché, i know, but i feel less anxious about life since i stopped projecting myself into a future i didn't want.
whoops,, I get bored and overwhelmed easily. I feel like I’m not doing enough. like life isn’t moving even when I’m doing something but then I have to remind myself that this is in fact life.
I allow myself to move through ny life at breakneck speed in order to get to the next “thing”— whether thats a job, life stage, relationship, goal, etc.. i have been doing this since I was 15. It wasn’t until this last summer/fall that I stopped to look around at the life I had built and fully feel everything! I enrolled in a grad program 2 years ago, at the encouragement of my partner, and this past fall I really started to see myself in this career. I feel energized by my work and research, I feel cared for by my department. I feel like a fulfilling career is awaiting me, yet I am taking the time to feel settled in my current service job and internship, careful not to rush past the mundanity and sweetness of my life now. I have everything ahead of me, truly what is my hurry?
my friend Jonah did this for his bestie's bday: everyone brings their favorite records or CDs and we listen to everyone's music taste! bonus points if you bring a snack/drink to pair with it
my friend Chloe lives in a gorg apartment complex that has lots of elderberry trees, so whenever they ripened we harvested them and made some tasty jam!! it was really fun to clip them off the tree, pulling on branches to bring the berries closer to me felt nice cuz when i released the branch it'd slap back all relieved that we're lightening it's load.
when something shifts... emerged from depression? curse is lifted. finally did that thing I've been avoiding? curse is lifted. I see my friends after a period of grinding it out? curse. is. lifted.