Sorry hella, you’re getting an earnest response from me. TBH you know to expect that by now!!!
Are those feelings normal? Yes. Should we trust them? No.
When we feel like that it is because we are in so much pain. Pain that feels unbearable. The drive to hurt ourselves is to feel a different kind of pain as a temporary relief. The pain to hurt others is to shuck our pain off in the hopes we don’t have to feel it as much. Both options are futile and extremely temporary. Both will make us feel worse in the end.
There are ways to redirect that drive to harm in a way that won’t actually go against your values. But keep in mind, underneath that is sadness. And sadness needs a lot of love.
If this isn’t just a silly ask, and you are hurting, please don’t be ashamed to get support. I’ve been there more times than I can probably count. Love ya Hella 💗