even if it leads to you chasing your tail a bit, i think travelling can be a little hectic and have it be a positive thing. pushes you, keeps you going, helps you enjoy the destinations too.
it's a bit uneasy but it feels freeing? like you just step into the unknown and start figuring it out.
last time i went on a lil trip by myself, did all the plannings like the to-do lists, must-sees, must-eats, bla bla bla. when the trip ended, i didn't feel like enjoying it? but feel more like accomplished?
as a control freak, this thing is hard but i'm excited for whatever it is to come!!!
don't let travel be something or a hobby that is for other people. being in a place where the culture is different, there are different social rules, norms helps you find yourself in a way it is not possible in living where the societal understanding is the same as what you are used to. It is so clarifying when you are reacting and liking to new things. so grounding. everyone loves grounding. its worth not buying a few things to save up to go somewhere as far as you can. travelling is not as expensive as u think if u r willing to go somewhere kinda random.
(ps this trick does not work if you just go to tourist places, bc u will just interact with tourists, and not actually get to experience what its like to eat breakfast like a _____ person.)
put on a cute outfit that i like and go look at books in a bookshop with no plan on buying anything. take myself to dinner in a sit-down restaurant after, then head home and relax with a cup of tea. music in my headphones during all of it, probably a mix of sad and more upbeat stuff. thatβs the closest thing i have to a cure-all right there.
