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One day the skin that holds me will be dust
And I’ll be ready to travel again
For now, I want to go further in
Into moment, into vision, into you
I swore I'd show myself so I could renew
That's not the same as being new forever
The shape of your hand left in the dust of summer glass
I want to be whole enough to risk again
Oct 9, 2024
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Holding out all my fears and faults
Those that conquer me
Started the second pack
'Fore the first one's finishing
I like to bridge the gap between
A break and long-lost lovers
Only to get me, by until I decide
I've had enough
Most of the time, I can feel them on me
The eyes from the stranger's window
It's dark, and it's lonely, but it's nothin' to me
At least somebody's home
Decades are wasting on your name
You'll grasp the concept of life
When you give up the point of trying
If you don't do the things that you do
They'll just happen to you
Pulling out all my weight
And do my part and you'll say
Oh, I'm so glad you're here with us today
You probably thought you would be gone
And until there's another way
I just have to face that there's no real place
To go and I could really be alone
I'd promise you now that if I had known
I wouldn't be standing here
There's memories to be made
And water that's to wade
I used it all up, drying tears
Of course, I don't regret
The moments where I wept
And yearned for what I've got now
It's only time, it won't age like wine
But it's mine and I'll take the blow
Dec 15, 2024
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this time last year i would listen to this song every day on the subway to my mind-numbingly boring barista job. i worked eight hour shifts alone, serving the occasional customer but mostly just sitting around eating expired baked goods and staring down at my ten-year-old docs spattered with matcha and espresso, the soles crusted with sidewalk salt. i listened to Phair singing about closing her eyes and her bank account and needing someone to do her thinking for her, and i fantasized about walking away from the shapeless, sleepy postgraduate life i’d sunk into.
taking off my apron, abandoning the city and everyone who knew me there, getting on a train or a plane or just walking until i was swallowed by the sunset…it all sounds so trite now, but at the time i carried that idea around like a lucky charm. something to hold onto, to help me feel real. i thought it was the most romantic thing a girl could do. go west, young woman.
Jan 26, 2024
Sweetest Kerina, give me a sign
Still haven't seen you
Been calling you all the time
Calling you all the time
Caught in the turning, losing the light
But I've learned to believe you
When you say it'll be just fine
You say it'll be just fine
Let me know reasons why we change
Why our bodies are more than just breath and veins
Yeah, I wonder what remains
Past the forest and borders and pocket change
Ooh-ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh
Wind doesn't blow, baby, just 'cause I want it to
Ooh-ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh
You don't want me, honey, just 'cause I wanted you
Caught in the turning, losing my mind
Well, I lose what I'm learning
When I'm calling you all the time
But you say it'll be just fine
Let me know reasons why we change
Why our bodies are more than just breath and veins
Yeah, I wonder what remains
Past the forest and borders and pocket change
Ooh-ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh
Wind doesn't blow, baby, just 'cause I want it to
Ooh-ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh
You don't want me, honey, just 'cause I wanted you
Dec 9, 2024
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Remember that you did everything you could in order to get through
give yourself grace and peace, drink water and do some big deep breaths.
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