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First day of my life - bright eyes (mac miller cover)

I’ve shed more tears to this than prob any other song… found this right around the time he passed away. Was early into my senior year of high school. So many feelings… RIP MAC 92 to Infinity

@mintgawd

Jun 21, 2024

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in the stars - benson boone

thinking of a friend gone forever is, uh, obviously going 2 make me cry

@brb

Feb 11, 2024

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Making a memorial playlist for your dear, departed friend with all their favorite music on it

Her name was Michelle and she was the best. She worked with me at Starbucks on the music team and sometimes I hear this playlist playing overhead in a Starbucks somewhere and just smile to myself. Until it gets to Helio Sequence’s "Shed Your Love" and then I just have to walk out. 🥲 Some memories are harder than others. You were loved, funny girl.

@coreydubrowa

Mar 2, 2024

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loving your friends

lately, i’ve been feeling extra loving to my friends. maybe it’s the end of the year and upon reflection, i realized that the number of friends i have in my life has been shrinking as i go older. Its hard to keep in touch with peoplee you see 3-4 days a week in high school / university once you start working and worries about bills and the future start to consume your life on a more regular basis - and so when i have people i could call friends, i just felt extra mushy inside. not to mention that my friends (esp the guys) are hella darn cute and im having the worst case of platonic crush I think its normal though (having crush on your friends). i mean, these people are consistently (mostly) kind to you, sweet, and you hang out semi regularly… like isnt that enough for a crush? Anyway, im just so so grateful i’m ending the year with few people i could call friends. I got no idea what the future holds, but i do hope i can still keep them for a few years….

@missbean24

Dec 24, 2024

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class rage and loneliness

I got no idea how to even begin describe my resentment (and guilt because of said resentment) towards my friends who have it better than me. I once had to sleep with no heater (on winter!) because I was afraid that I wouldn’t be able to pay the bills. Another time, I literally passed out because I didn’t have any meals for 24 hours. I had work, then class, then more work that I just forgot to eat. I’m in infinitely better place now - I could send my Mom money and I have an average savings on my account. I also maintain friendships, many of whom with people that come from better families than me. i promise you im not always so resentful. But today, when a friend of mine posted a random compliment a stranger gave (“you really have it all! A career, a startup of your own, and youre good at sports and so hot!“) and I just couldn’t shake the ugly green monster inside of me. He was born from a wealthy family — with more than two businesses and expanding, he is athletic because his family could afford all the extra classes and he has been sheltered from all the financial stress and family stress that he was able to study well, got into good university, and the rest is history. I feel so so awful for feeling this way. He has never been mean to me and i know for sure he is humble enough to not rub that off in front of his friends (incl me) but i just cant shake this ugly feeling. A, i’m so sorry but i think i will stop coming to badminton games for awhile now. i’m so envious of you :(

@missbean24

Jan 1, 2025