I think that the dread is held inside of you and it's not something that can simply be let go of, and you have to sit with the dread because it is the terrible reality of what it means to be living as you are where you are. And it goes without saying that that specific experience is above and beyond what any human being should have to endure, let alone be expected to continue going through the world with. And so I don't have anything but solidarity from another country and:
- Somatic movement literally changed my life. You are forced to embody yourself without over-intellectualising exactly what your body is, you just have to be in it, and it makes you connect with this very internal part of yourself that is not defined by sociopolitical structure and it's lowkey emotional asf and I am a very cynical person who was made to change my mind
so, if you can find/afford/have capacity to pay for classes that work for you, I would recommend yoga, tai chi, or any form of movement class like biomechanics or something along those lines (I would also argue climbing counts as somatic movement)
if not, I think there is something to be said for a YouTube video that you listen to instead of watching, in the privacy of your own space, just moving your body
- If this is too slow and difficult, my other favourite somatic exercise is just to put in AirPods and lock the door and dance and dance and dance. This eased my clinical dread when antidepressants were not working. they do not want you dancing. therefore it is very important to do so