the other day i was talking to someone and i randomly started really struggling to get words out so i just began shrugging and walked away. i really hope i didnāt come off as rude but it had the same feeling as skipping through rpg dialogue. unrelated video of mr perfectās wrestlemania 9 promo at 6:30 linked
Just me, or does it read as inherently bitchy? Just say āI canāt make itā or āsorry, Iām busyā or like anything else. This kinda phrasing gives off āIāve heard your plan and decided I donāt like it, so Iām gonna wait for something better to come in.ā c.f. the way my sister responds to many of my invitations šæ
I believe this is whatās going to motivate me to put in the self work. If I canāt keep promises Iāve made to myself, what I say to other people canāt reach its full impact. Make a list for my days
Do whats on the list
Becauseeeee
I love myself There was some sort of mental block but im working through it. Iām not lazy. I just couldnāt do the mundane things?? But I made the appointments and Iāve fully completed my laundry in one day. Itās as simple as just getting it done. I can do it later but than itāll just never get done or I can put it on my day planner and get it done when I say I want to. Checking it off is satisfying. Also not overloading my day with task is important.
Fear of aging leads to dying young.. figuratively and possibly literally.
I have a small part of anxiety with aging but that comes from being able to retire at a āreasonableā age. Iām excited to live and learn.
Iām taking a dark shower (no lights or candles). A planet is being illuminated soooo bright rn itās beautiful. Steaming hot water to 34 degree weather because Iām going outside to see it better when Iām done. The planet parade is coming soon. Iāll have to call out of work. I canāt miss it.