âthe sea and i are long time loversâ my dream equivalent of âi just wanna stay at home and eat chipsâ is âi just wanna sit in front of the ocean and listen to the wavesâ. both are valid standards of living.
i will never settle down somewhere that is not next to an ocean i will never be land locked for a long period of time i will always be most comfortable within an hour driving range of the ocean
one time on a road trip to nevada as a kid i overheard the gas station lady saying she had only seen the ocean 3 times and it was the saddest thing i had ever heard i thought about it for the rest of the trip
some people will never see the ocean and some people only a few times
the ocean and shore and the smell and the experience are the most stable thing i can call home and will always give me That Feeling
i live at this sunny coastal city and i rarely go to the beach.
went to the beach today with a friend, emerged into the warm salty water and asked myself why i don't enjoy more the best thing this city has to offer me: sunsets and the sea.
i'm a busy person etc etc, but i can't waste my entire week at an office and my own home office.
that's my sunday thought
âhow can a person know everything at eighteen, but nothing at twenty-twoâ life truly humbles you. as you start growing older, you stop only chasing the big things, and start valuing the little things too. being able to weave stories of experiences and begin applying themâintegrating the lessons and learning curves. in the past few hours of being eighteen, ive learnt how limited our time on earth truly is. i was advised (perhaps even lectured) that i shouldnât try to defy natureâs course with futile attempts to âage gracefullyâ, but to rather age with mischief, audacity and a good story to tell. beyond grateful for the love that surrounds me, and the love that i am bound to give out.
An ideal world is one that knows no pain. That, sadly, is not the one we live in. Pain is a part of the human experienceâbut failure to move on from it makes you miserable. If you dwell too much on what has happened, you will never be fulfilled enough to see all the good you have/ that is to come. Acceptance of what has happened is the first step to overcoming the consequences of a situation. âAnd in fact, itâs time to forsake someone elseâs idea of what gives you a spark or no spark. Block the âotherâ from the picture. No more audience. Just you.â Whether you choose to take that responsibility (of acceptance), or give it up to the disappointments of life, you return to yourself. The choice is whether to wallow in the misery of that pain, or take it as it comes and look at what it has to offer you.
"You get a strange feeling when you're about to leave a place. Like you'll not only miss the people you love but you'll miss the person you are now at this time and this place, because you'll never be this way ever again."
- Azar Nafisi, Reading Lolita in Tehran The best decision Iâve made this year was to start a video journal of my senior year and capture every momentâno matter how insignificantâto keep the year frozen in time. No matter how much time goes by; no matter how many characters I change to become, Iâll always have these videos to remind me of my essenceâwhere I come from, and what made me. It doesnât matter that the cusp of them are 0.5x videos of my friendsâ foreheads, clips of me crying in public restrooms, and logs of us stealing grocery store carts to race them down the streetâthese moments are what I stay alive for.