banana pudding isn't really a very common dessert where i am, and just recently it was all the rage because of the matcha latte/banana pudding trend. when i had my first taste of banana pudding (oh my god), it's sooo good, i've made it twice already and i'm planning to make it again soon. (pictured: my first taste of banana pudding from a cafe, serving it with matcha latte. honestly, i don't see why they are being paired together. they are great separately but i don't see the point of their pairing.)
I am not a very emotional person especially compared to my close friends who cry often and share their life and struggles to me
this year something happened to me that got me very sad and I cried hard for a long time
that day, I had felt like a dam broke in my mind and all of a sudden I began to cry over everything (tiktoks, stars, little women)
when I reflect on this, I feel sad that my happiness has seemingly decreased, however(!) I now feel much happier and healthier because I am letting out my emotions rather than keeping them to myself
I also have come to love the sensation of crying. it's a fun and interesting state to be in physically and mentally and it's really kinda cool
now instead of thinking that I am just less emotional than other people, I've realized that I too have the capacity to feel things and I'm happy ❤️🫧🌷
I have the flu and lately when I go to sleep and I'm kinda tossing and turning and coughing I'm thinking about knights
I keep accidentally falling into a pattern of sorta choreographing knights like moving them around into specific spots and positions and motions for some reason and I cant stop even when I try to think of something else it's real scary actually
