my mind no longer operates in the paradigm that, in my youth, convinced me that some (most) people were too [insert socially favorable adjective here] to be friends with me. as a result i was timid and insecure. i knew a lot of people and i thought they would never be interested in knowing ~me~. in the past 5 years i’ve made close and genuine friendships with people i had previously put on a pedestal simply because i thought they were better than me. omg i read a poem this morning that goes something like: “devotion is not love, it creates distance. you can’t hold someone from a pedestal.”
