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I am a very neurotic person living essentially among a daily mist of anxious intellectualizing... Who is currently mildly concussed... Maybe. Thus my most valued personal system is physically or at least psychically affected which is interesting... I was told to "take it easy" and be watchful of signs i should take a step back and stop doing whatever it is that causes, for example, nausea
Historically i am always doing a "powering through" and "withstanding" action often to get to the most intense version/end of whatever sensation it is i am feeling at the time, i.e. with substances
Hannah from Girls -style, like, putting myself masochistically in the way of things to suffer and then write about it
This is good advice for many situations, to not do that and just stop sometimes
Jan 17, 2024
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There’s a term I learned that I have found very useful- insight junkies. It is when a person in therapy seeks more and more insight, but never actually heals or transforms any of it. This can be kind of an issue is straight talk therapy- okay we’ve identified the issue, now what?
When you clean out a wound, you need to stop messing with it in order for it to heal. It needs to have some air to breathe. That’s never going to happen if you keep picking at it.
Try things on. Get playful. Make mistakes. TAKE ACTION! Change is not supposed to be easy or comfortable, but that doesn’t mean it can’t also be fun and exciting.
Feb 14, 2025
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Things that come to mind that I’ve tried:
Firstly, recognizing that it is anxiety. Helps my brain reframe the experience. I most likely didn’t do anything anyone is going to think twice about in a bad way, but rather my dang anxiety is going haywire again and is distorting things.
Loving boundaries with onself. I literally talk to my anxiety like it’s a kid. I give compassion to it, but also draw the boundary that I’m not just going to listen to the same shit over and over if it’s unhelpful. It’s not ignoring, but is is consicously saying NOPE. I’m not doing this to myself! Sometimes, I just need to recognize that yeah that was weird, wtf. But I don’t let myself beat myself up over it.
I also have some go to phrases that help me. Firstly, that no one probably cared or noticed the things I did. And secondly, so what if they did? What’s the worst that could happen? They don’t like me? They confront me? I usually come to the conclusion that while some situations would suck, I actually could handle anything. I’m not a bad person.
Then I distract myself. I practice mindfulness in the things I’m doing so I stay in the present moment. If my mind starts to go back to that, I see if there’s more I need to feel but usually I’ve dealt with it and just say NOPE! I’m done with that now!
I hope this is helpful. Sometimes when extroverting my inner process I’m unsure if it makes sense to anyone but me. But, I’ve been there! I think a lot of people have. And it sucks, but there’s a path forward 🫶
Feb 3, 2025
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from the perspective of being in therapy, i personally try my best to stay away from this mindset because it only hurts you. one way i break out of this thought is by asking myself a few things:
1) am i physically in danger?
2) has anything changed that will affect my livelihood today?
i think that a lot of times, we look at news and things going on around us or thousands of miles away and we jump to conclusions and kinda forecast what effects will happen to us or others in the near future. that isn’t so healthy if you can’t use this energy constructively to advocate for yourself and others.
so either we accept things and move forward, or we block out the nonsense going around us. personally i do a mixture of both.
Apr 6, 2025
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revisited this on an earlier stretch of the northeast corridor... i recommend listening to math rock in transit. there is something about the internetted and regular rhythms that when cumulative over the course of a song/album will lead to the listener being moved and “opened”. it is maybe the closest music feels to pure information. love it in tandem with transit-windowed visual information, sound and image feel “encoded” in 2 simultaneous and meaningful streams. while listening today i thought the words “sleepy bloom” about how it felt coming into my brain
Dec 22, 2023
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you can see on one side the sunset in one large beautiful glow backing the city image , and on the other side you can also see the apposite roseate light in lozenges against the beams of the bridge. looking back and forth is pleasant, and easy if seated perpendicular to the walls of the train. and soon after getting off the train to meet adrian in chinatown you will no longer remember seeing this and being happy until the next morning when on the N train slightly post-sunrise reforming the association from a similar experience on the same bridge
Dec 22, 2023
Delicious burritos and tortas, also there are juices
I recommend the brisket burrito
It is very beautiful inside, no 2d image can capture the optical lushness and scale of the real environment but here is a photograph that conveys at least partial representation of the colors and menu density (the entire restaurant looks like this)
Jan 12, 2024