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i am someone who is either all in or not
i dont like to half ass stuff because
1- i was taught that half ass-ing anything was a waste of my own and everyone else's time and time is something that should be valued
2- im just not someone who half asses anything by nature
i am someone who puts their heart and soul into something and i wont stop until it is perfect
not to someone else but to me
so if i know i can do better i will always at least will TRY to do so
but this is low key so fucking debilitating
in my quest to make perfection i am quite literally chaining myself
its all a balancing act that i always struggle to keep up with and maintain
May 3, 2024
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yes i can write, study, sing, cook, talk better but why do i have to every time?? why is better always desirable? why do i have to prove the true depths of my talents & capabilities w every little project??
Feb 21, 2024
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I am a very neurotic person living essentially among a daily mist of anxious intellectualizing... Who is currently mildly concussed... Maybe. Thus my most valued personal system is physically or at least psychically affected which is interesting... I was told to "take it easy" and be watchful of signs i should take a step back and stop doing whatever it is that causes, for example, nausea
Historically i am always doing a "powering through" and "withstanding" action often to get to the most intense version/end of whatever sensation it is i am feeling at the time, i.e. with substances
Hannah from Girls -style, like, putting myself masochistically in the way of things to suffer and then write about it
This is good advice for many situations, to not do that and just stop sometimes
Jan 17, 2024
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art is a way people cope with human existence and express feelings as well as share and pass down culture
why tf is A.I. in the mix
its weird to me
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i been doing this since HS honestly and i love it
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TW: drugs and psychosis
i was in active addiction 4 years ago and was going on a 4 day streak of a bender
where i decided to go to a party do meth (ik) and drink and smoke (more) weed
i was so out of it that when i had to leave
(never drive UTI) it looked like i was driving through a forest under water
when i got back to my friends place her mom said their family cat (who was v old) was dying and she wanted us to say good to him
when i looked at the cat it looked like it was turned inside out and its inside were rotting
i felt sick to my stomach and hid in her room where i began to question everything
what i had seen, what i was doing, and finally who i was and if the thoughts i had were mine or someone else's- it was a lot
it was from there i kinda realized there was more and now im here
sober and a changed woman
the end
Jul 5, 2024