i am someone who is either all in or not i dont like to half ass stuff because
1- i was taught that half ass-ing anything was a waste of my own and everyone else's time and time is something that should be valued
2- im just not someone who half asses anything by nature i am someone who puts their heart and soul into something and i wont stop until it is perfect
not to someone else but to me so if i know i can do better i will always at least will TRY to do so but this is low key so fucking debilitating in my quest to make perfection i am quite literally chaining myself
its all a balancing act that i always struggle to keep up with and maintain
i half ass EVERYTHING. i never fully try. i never admit to wanting something or someone. i just float around basically not existing. we should make a baby
yes i can write, study, sing, cook, talk better but why do i have to every time?? why is better always desirable? why do i have to prove the true depths of my talents & capabilities w every little project??
I am a very neurotic person living essentially among a daily mist of anxious intellectualizing... Who is currently mildly concussed... Maybe. Thus my most valued personal system is physically or at least psychically affected which is interesting... I was told to "take it easy" and be watchful of signs i should take a step back and stop doing whatever it is that causes, for example, nausea Historically i am always doing a "powering through" and "withstanding" action often to get to the most intense version/end of whatever sensation it is i am feeling at the time, i.e. with substances Hannah from Girls -style, like, putting myself masochistically in the way of things to suffer and then write about it This is good advice for many situations, to not do that and just stop sometimes
using A.I. for art instead of using it to fix problems such as poverty, climate change etc is fucking weird art is a way people cope with human existence and express feelings as well as share and pass down culture
why tf is A.I. in the mix
its weird to me
it can be overwhelming dealing with the absolute chaos of the world
i know that feeling- i usually get so mad i cry
but i learned that you can only focus on what you are able to control
caring about people and the state of the world shows you have a huge beautiful heart
but remember you are only one person
and while you cant fix the world
you can do your best to be part of it and do what you know is right
no matter what