will dull it. If you want to mask it, you can drink heavily, but itâll still show up. It does suck and hurts, but you did it for a reason and eventually the longing & overthinking will stop. Cry it out, talk to your people, listen to that one song on repeat. Itâs a human experience to haveđ«¶đœ
it always sounds dumb but for me the only thing that seems to help is crying and then remembering that this will pass spending a lot of time with your fun friends is also key
Live with heartbreak for a while. Itâll be different but the same. Youâll forget why and then remember and feel it all over again. Delete their pictures but keep them in a secret folder on your phone so you can cry by yourself watching their face smile at you. Re-learn old habits youâve forgotten you even enjoyed because you strayed so far away from who you once were.
In some odd way youâll have to re-learn happiness, too. Well, not so much re-learning it but changing its meaning, find new ways to feel fulfilled, the same way you once felt with them. Make some more lame playlists with oddly specific titles so you at least feel like youâre making something out of all the quiet pain you feel inside. And wonder. A lot of wondering. All the time. Everywhere. In your house. At your job. Inside your body and next to you in the bed you once woke beside them, smiling. And youâll never forget, but it will get painfully easier.
the mind can do it, rationally. but heartache is something you canât think away. one day, after many months, you wake up and thinking about it doesnât shake you to your core - the âwhat ifsâ donât sound too good either. one random day you just wake up and itâs like nothing ever happened, it DID happen but itâs not part of you in the same way.
so you can hear the mail lady crash out on a speakerphone call. âYou dumb motherfucker, thatâs NOT WHAT THIS IS ABOUT!!!â Pulled off the mail truck mad as hell too.
Anti-rec: driving angry
